September 11th is always a solemn day for me. I tend to avoid the media coverage, the public memorials, the talking heads on television making political hay from a tragedy that has no meaning or ending that makes sense. Instead I prefer to reflect on my own experiences that day, a few miles from Ground Zero across the river in New Jersey, safely separated from danger by the Hudson, but close enough to witness the tragic aftermath. The sound of fighter jets scrambling toward Manhattan, thundering overhead as I stood outside my office. The sight of ambulances lining for miles the route that leads to the Lincoln Tunnel, waiting in vain to rescue the victims. The sense of utter confusion and despair that this could not possibly be happening.
So today’s run was dedicated to all those who were lost too soon on this day twelve years ago. Perhaps fittingly, I ran in Forest Lawn cemetery, among the markers that speak to the stories of those who rest beneath them. I wondered how many of their stories had also been cut short and had no tidy ending. I thought of a college friend who was lost at Ground Zero, and all the life he would have experienced in the last twelve years. And I thought of all the life I have experienced in the years since that fateful day: the silly heartbreaks, the professional setbacks, the friendships that have come and gone. All the things in life that seem so tragic and insurmountable when we are experiencing them, but that eventually fade into distant memory as we move on with life. Life, that precious and sometimes awful gift that those lost on 9/11 would have given anything to keep.
So, on a day when we remember the too-short stories of the lost, I run with gratitude that I have had the opportunity to experience all the pains and blisters and scars along the way, both in running and in life. Never forget.